This week has been rough. Not physically rough, mentally rough. I have noticed that even though I am taking my meds, it feels like I’m not, to the point where I have started to burst into tears for very little reason. It reached a point yesterday where I decided that I needed to do something about it, so I am off back to the Doc’s. I have read that the body doesn’t get immune to antidepressants, in fact mine are out of your system within 24 hours, hence the headrush, world spinning effect. However, for some reason they do reach a point where they become less effective. And I think that I have reached that point. Which is sad, because I’ve been on Venlaflaxine for about 3 or 4 years now, I know the side effects, and can handle those. Some of the previous antidepressants have given me nausea, headaches, unexplained aches and pains. Here’s hoping that they can provide an antidepressant that can work with the venlaflaxine rather than put me onto a whole new lot of tablets, because that is painful. The reducing the meds on a fast basis and replacing them equally fast is hard on the body and brain.
I did get some more feedback on Finding Amy Archer this week, and I have been devouring it. The person has had a similar life experience to me, so she enjoyed the story, laughed and cried at the right spots and felt that the story progressed how it should, which is great. I’m pleased she enjoyed it. I have two more people to hear back from, one has asked for an extension (is this high school all over again???) which I granted, because she is a super busy author herself. I can’t wait to hear what she has to say about the book because she is my mentor and I really value her opinions.
Because I am on the sole parent benefit and have a disability (yes, depression is a disability?!?), I was put on a Workbridge program which means I have to attend a course on Wednesday and Thursday. The guy sounded really excited to be working with me the first time he contacted me, then he seemed to have a brain switch, because it was like he didn’t know who I was the second time we spoke. Anyway, this course is supposed to be three days, with NMIT – the local polytechnic talking about the courses they have available – however, as I explained to the guy, my brain capacity for learning isn’t at its best right now, so I don’t have to attend the first day of the course, although I also have work that I really need right now. The second day is a discussion with IRD about setting up a business and working from home, which really interests me, and the third day is a large retailer who comes in and talks about work opportunities within their business. Which is all well and good, but I can’t do more than 15 hours of work a week without stressing out. And this week I have been stressed to the MAX! Hopefully the course will be beneficial, or I think I will cry again!
Good news on the car front, I have a transmission being shipped from Auckland. Its a relief to get one sorted, but now have to find a mechanic who can put it in for a reasonable price. Fingers crossed aye.
So what is happening in your world this week?
Take care out there