Thank goodness I have an appointment with a psychiatrist today. I was going to say that she will have the answers, but she doesn’t. She’s an awesome sounding board though. I am pretty much in a holding pattern at the moment, waiting to get into the hospital to see a psychologist, and fortunately this psychiatrist has taken me under her wing in the meantime.
To make it even nicer, another lady from the Mental Health Unit rang me last week, just to make sure everything was OK, and that I was coping and to let me know that there is only a couple of people ahead of me on the list, so I should get a psychologist soon. I sometimes wish that I was staying with the psychiatrist, she has a sense of humour and a real understanding and is so good at validating my feelings, even if they are of confusion. And she thanks me for sharing things with her.
As for complications – I guess having changed my ideas about what I do and don’t want to do, I now have to work out how to go about changing the situation, and unfortunately most of it is money based, so unless I find a money tree, or deal in illegal legal highs (which by the way I don’t condone or use), then money isn’t going to miraculously appear in front of me. But I have had an idea, I just need to approach a couple of people to see if it is feasible to work it.
Anyway, another day, another dollar (which goes to the family budget, not my work budget) and I better get myself organised.