A few weeks ago – well, actually, it was back in OCTOBER! I put up a post titled “What Have I Done?” At the time I was too nervous to really explain what it was all about – so let you clear that up.
I went and had some boudoir photographs taken of me. Yes, that’s right, semi clothed photos of me! I can tell you now, that when I came out of the door of the studio, I felt 10 ft tall and bulletproof. It was the most empowering experience I have ever had, and I don’t regret it for a moment.
It has taken me a while to get the photos back, but I have them, and I have cautiously showed some people. And they love them. In fact one has asked me to put my favourite in the lounge, and if I wasn’t going to do it, she wants to put it in her lounge. EEEEEP! While the attention is flattering, it has taken me a lot of guts to get there.
I started losing weight in August with the Junk Food Free month on Facebook. While I had a couple of little cheaty moments, I kept the goal in sight, and I achieved it. By the end of the month, I had lost 3.5cm from my bust, 6cm from my waist and 3cm from my hips. I now have a curvy figure! And I am proud of it. I have lost a little bit more since then, but I am finally, after years of embarrassment, enjoying my body!
That doesn’t mean that I don’t have moments when I think I am still fat and podgy – far from it. I have “blips” when I’m tired and all of a sudden, I think how fat I am, or how lousy a mother I am. But I have to keep reminding myself, that I have lost these centimetres, and so far, I have lots some more – they haven’t come back. But it can be hard to see that when you are in a dark space. But remembering to breathe, and remind yourself that you are wearing shorts and skirts you haven’t worn for two years is a really good start.
So, who wants to see some of these pictures? I will put two of my favourites up – because really, the rest are a present for my beloved.