I have recently had my antidepressant changed, and while the Doctor assured me that there wouldn’t be any of the hassles like when you first start taking them, I have really been feeling very flat – two dimensional and wondering why I really don’t care!
It took me a couple of days to recognise it, but the darkness was lurking in the background, but I have found that focusing on something else does help to ease it, and get me back into the light.
I have recently signed up as a Leadership Representative in my Avon business and working at building a team underneath me. Actually going out and interacting with the public is the LAST THING I feel like doing, but smiling and making small talk does help me to move back into the light. It helps me to focus on something other than myself and my hopelessness, which is how I feel when I don’t have anything else on.
But I am not burying my head in the sand, because I am tired too, so I am not pushing myself. I have every second day off and just focus on homelife, tidying up, watching funny programmes on the telly, and just giving myself some peace.
All of these things are working for me, and slowly, so p a i n f u l l y s l o w l y I am getting better.
I only want to keep taking the antidepressant to get me through the winter, then I hope to come out into the spring with a bright new outlook and able to cope without the medication. Fingers crossed this all comes together!