February has started with a hiss and a roar, and apparently I didn’t get the memo! Its incredible how fast time is going, already it is the 7th February.
A few mixed emotions going on at the moment, because it is coming up to the anniversary of my marriage dying. While this year just been has been a really good one overall, its been a tough one too, with lots of questions. I’ve found some answers, but others still allude me. Obviously to be answered when the time is right.
So physically, I have been gardening, and on Saturday had my first hit out at golf. I very much enjoyed it, and surprisingly I wasn’t sore afterwards – or the next day. I’ve always enjoyed golf, and now that I have an amazing tutor (Ali, also my gardening boss) who was so patient with me. Towards the end of the game, things were improving tenfold.
I have been watching what I have been eating, and have been slowly improving my diet. I cook up macaroni or rice for lunch and mix it up with some beetroot relish, tomato sauce, or leftovers from the fridge. Very yummy!
Mentally, well this has been a two edged sword. I have been declining mental health wise for a wee while now, since December, so I have decided to increase my meds (with Doctors approval). It wasn’t something that I wanted to do, but for my own wellbeing, I needed to, otherwise I would have been in for a big crash. Hopefully things will improve over the coming weeks as the extra dosage gets into my system.
I have started sign language, and I can say Hello, my name is Karen – of course Karen has to be fingerspelt, but I have been fingerspelling since Intermediate (After School with Ollie Olsen – anyone else remember that?) I sent away to Van Asch College and told them I would love to learn, and they sent me back some booklets. I will progress each week and hopefully be able to have a simple conversation soon.
Last week I spent five days in Wellington. It is fast becoming one of my favourite places to hang out. I stay with a friend up there, and he took me for a walk along the Oriental Parade on Saturday and we went up to the Wairarapa on Sunday. I had never been there before and got to the see the lake, and drive over the Rimutaka’s. It was a wonderful experience to see more of our beautiful New Zealand and spent time with a great friend.
I also got to take my son to see Rogue One, as we are both big Star Wars fans. It was nice to be able to spend time with my son doing something that we both enjoy.
While I haven’t done any yoga lately, I have been doing a lot of breathing exercises, as I have found myself declining mentally. Lots of sighs being heaved etc. So when I do that, I take a deep breath in, and allow myself to see the oxygen flooding into my blood, then breath out and allow the carbon-dioxide out. Mentally being able to see the oxygen going into the blood and the CO2 coming out, grounds me and makes me more mindful and aware of my surroundings.
Next week, another He Said, She Said.
How are you coping with the year so far? Feel free to comment below.