Its been a month since my last update. The reason being I struggled through most of February. Once the 14th was over, I had my birthday to look forward to, and thanks to some special people in my life, it was made an amazingly awesome day.
I did increase my meds at the beginning of February, to help me get through, but I have since reduced them back, because I got through, but felt they weren’t really giving me the boost I needed. As it was, coming down, I feel okay, so it was obviously a lot of emotional turmoil going on that made me feel less able to cope.
But March is positive, lots of good things have happened.
Physical: I have been out walking as well as gardening still, and that has been rather physical lately with moving a lot of bark around. It has been a good all over body workout, and my walks have been up a hill and back, so cardio and stretching involved in one 30 minute walk. My diet has been a lot better. During February I consumed more chocolate that was necessary, but my body was craving it, so I usually listen to my body. This month it is craving garlic and mushrooms, so it is gearing up for the winter colds, chills and flu seasons. I need to watch my health, as it does affect my mental health extremely badly.
Mental – sign language is going great. I have learnt some simple phrases and words, but I still need to work on finding someone I can converse with on a more regular basis. But I am enjoying this new experience. Spiritual
Emotional – My son and I went to Wellington and enjoyed some sights and sounds as well as culture. It was a bit of an eyeopener for him, but that was one of the reasons why I wanted to take him there, so he could see how other people live. We live in a tiny bubble in the village, and when he goes to town, they don’t really have anything quite like they do on the streets of Wellington, like a yeti performing opera… Yes, we actually watched this in Wellington. I wanted him to experience people from other cultures, and also the homeless people, so he knew that there is a life outside of our own 4 walls. He appreciates that more now, and like me, was pleased to get home to our lovely little quiet house.
Spiritually – I’m still finding my place in the world. It has come as a shock that I really haven’t dealt with insecurities that my marriage brought up – or rather lack of marriage. This is something that I need to work on, and I know that I can and will succeed, its just finding out what the triggers are and learning what I can do to minimise or reduce them.
Next week, another He Said, She Said.
How are you coping with the year so far? Feel free to comment below.