Life is full of conflict at the moment, and it is always something I avoid. I find it hard to cope with yelling and screaming, and often turn a blind eye if I see or hear it, not because I don’t want to see it, but because I just can’t handle the memories that it brings up.
But enough about that, I am currently editing my Medusa story that I wrote in June, and I have a couple of conflict areas in it, and on reflection, they are rather fluffy – not deep and gritty and I am sure the reader would be left wondering… what happened?
How do I get passed my own internal conflict to work on the external conflict? I guess I am going to have to be hard on myself and really feel the anger, frustration, rejection, hurt and pain and focus on those feelings while I am writing the conflict so that I can bring across the real emotion that is involved.
I am not looking forward to this process as I said earlier, I try and avoid conflict as much as possible, unless I am involved and then I enjoy a good screaming match, it clears the air and makes me feel better, even if I have hurt the other person, so that type of dealing with it is not going to work. And I want the conflict to be subtle in one instance, where you don’t even realise that there is conflict until it is too late.
So, I guess I just have to steel myself and get ready for it, and just feel the fear and do it anyway!