I had a really tough decision to make. Next week, I have my Romance Writers Meeting, but I also have an opportunity to learn something new, and frankly, something that scares me. It was a really hard choice between the two, but the course is a once in a lifetime opportunity.
So next Saturday, and Sunday, I am learning how to maintain and use a chainsaw. Yip, you read right. I am foregoing writing for learning about chainsaws.
Yes, I guess I am mad, but chainsaws scare me witless, and while the course goes for two days (one of which is practical and one is theory), we learn all there is to know about chainsaw maintenance, sharpening, and how to use a chainsaw. And that is what I am looking forward to. I want to know how to use a chainsaw and chop up wood, because you just never know when you need to know how to do it.
A friend lost her husband at the end of last year to a brain tumour. Before he died, he taught her how to hunt, fish and use a chainsaw. How is that for practical love. He gave her all the skills she would need to feed and provide for her small family.
And it has always stuck with me, that if anything happened to my beloved, then I wouldn’t know what to do, or how to use the chainsaw – because I am too scared to really give it a try.
But this weekend, I am facing my fear, and learning all I can about it.
And it got me thinking about my writing. I want to be published by the end of the year, but there is this niggling fear that keeps me putting it off. So I took a step last week, two actually. I resubmitted Scarlet Rose to two publishers, and sent another story off to a friend to proofread it. It was a big step to do that, but I believe that once I get the story back from my friend who is proofreading it, I will be another step closer to getting it published.
I have also been thinking more about The Gamble, and I can’t wait to get back into it and finish that off too. It is only a novella, but it would be another good one to get out and published, once I have finished it.
And one other story that really needs to be finished is Curse of the Taniwha. I have be putting it off, and I’m not sure why. I guess I am worried that it won’t be a novel and will end up being a novella. However, I just have to keep writing it, and I really need to knuckle down and get something done, otherwise another month will pass and nothing will have happened. I don’t want to start working on editing or writing a new story until I have the Taniwha story finished, so I have set a deadline for the end of July to get it finished. Then I can leave it for a month and spend August editing and reworking The Gamble.
So, I am feeling the fear, and I am taking steps towards diminishing it. I hope 🙂