Bangs Head on Desk by Tolan88 @ deviantart

Depression has really knocked my writing, and it is 8 months since I wrote anything of substance.  I have edited, but not written.

And I know that there are probably some people out there who are just thinking – “writers block”.

And I might have agreed with them, up until two months ago.

I have been writing, rather piecemeal, little bits on this story, a chapter on that story, back to the first story, but nothing really feels right.  Instead I feel like I am forcing myself to write.  This isn’t writers block.  Writers block is where you can’t write!  I can, I just don’t like it.

I know this makes more sense to me than it probably does to you, but I will try and simplify it down for you.

Everyone knows what Writers Block is – right?  (For those that don’t, Writer’s block is a condition, primarily associated with writing as a profession in which an author loses the ability to produce new work. (Thanks Wikipedia))

I can write.  I can write new stuff, it just doesn’t feel right, or sit with what I am doing.  I have days where I want to write, and will do so happily, but if I try too hard, it doesn’t seem right.  I still keep it though, because it might come in handy!

So my problem really is, that the urge to write just doesn’t happen as frequently as I would like, and that is frustrating the hell out of me.  I want to write, but when I sit at my laptop, unless I am really in the space and groove, writing is forced and doesn’t come out the way I want it to.

Maybe I am being too perfectionist about my writing?  But then I seem to feel rather down and flat if I force myself to do something I don’t want to do, so why force myself to write something that isn’t coming together for me.

I feel better for getting this out into the blogosphere, and I am slowly picking up the pieces.  Tonight I have actually done some research on Blood Gold, copying old Newspaper articles in the hopes that something might come of it.

Writers Block Vs Forced Writing
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6 thoughts on “Writers Block Vs Forced Writing

  • April 16, 2012 at 9:25 am
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    oh my! how i can relate to this. funny thing is for me, i was writing more when i was depressed. after being able to heal some of my wounds, i find myself left feeling empty, lots of ideas but nowhere, no direction. so i absolutely understand where you are, it isn’t writer’s block for sure…

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    • April 17, 2012 at 12:53 pm
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      I am hoping to get the ability to write back one day, just like my dreaming came back. I just have to be patient… Something I am not good at 🙂

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      • April 17, 2012 at 9:36 pm
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        now that i can relate too, patience…i have none either. i want everything nowwwwwwwwwwwww

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  • April 18, 2012 at 3:26 am
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    Maybe you could try writing just for practice rather than for a particular story. Use a writing prompt or something in your life as a starting point. I’ve just finished reading Writing Down The Bones by Natalie Goldberg and the idea of writing as practice really struck me as a great way to let go of the expectations and pressure we put on ourselves to produce stories worthy of revision and submission and publication.

    Good luck!

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    • April 18, 2012 at 6:22 pm
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      I have recently brought a series of books called “Writing On…” and I have the poetry one, historical fiction and mysteries, and I have brought three shiny new notebooks to do the exercises in, so your suggestion isn’t too far from what I planned to do. Great suggestion Kerryn.

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